Friday, September 29, 2006

Everything at one go

Hubby and UK

Hubby turned down the offer of going to UK cos dear little wifey cannot contain her tears. Wifey just cannot help it. Wifey just gotten over the 1st depression, now comes another one, wifey cannot tahan. If only wifey has 10k buckeroos, then hubby, wifey and ah boy can live happily in UK for that 2 mths.

Wifey DID persuade hubby that he should REALLY take up the offer. But hubby just don want wifey to be sad.

Now wifey is drenched in guilt.


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3 Little Bundles of Joy

Congrats to Mun for her baby boy!

Congrats to Kak Izzy for her baby boy!

Congrats to Yany for her baby boy!

Oh boy! Oh Boy! Oh BOYS!

Oh, by the way, did I tell u that this Yany is the sister of our Singapore Idol, Hady Mirza?

Yup. I know her. But neva seen the bro b4 this lah. Onli dat I knew it was her bro rite from the start. Didn't wanna make a big deal then coz didn't know if he's gonna make it or not.

So 2 kali rezeki for Yany di bulan yang mulia ini. Hady Mirza and nephew, Imran Mirza.

Don't believe? I've got proof. I've got photo. But I won't spread it around. That guy's a celebrity now. He's a star. Every pic is worth money. So just let him be.


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TooTH!!

Daanish is growing a tooth!!

So happy...

No fever. Just crankiness.

But then, he's alwez cranky what?

Whaddahell. He's a big boy now.

And beginning to have bad breadth in the morn.

Urrgh..


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Let the cat out of the bag

Once upon a time, I wrote abt me being depressed and worried over something. I think I'm gettin over it.

I shouldn't worry too much or be depressed.

Why should I be? Instead of being sad, I should be embracing the moment with so much joy and happiness.

It is not fair.

To the baby.

No, not Daanish.

The 2nd one growing in me.

Yes. I'm pregnant.

Again.

It is not fair to this baby that I did not take the news well enough.
It is not fair that the tears that flowed were not the tears of joy.
It is not fair that the good news wasn't spread around like the first.
Ultimately, it is very very unfair that the family doesn't know abt the baby.
Till this day.
And it's been 4 mths now.

It's true. No one in the family is in the know.
Not the parents. Not the in laws. Not the relatives. Well, I told my closest cousin. After abt 3 1/2mths.

They didn't notice (I think)
They didn't ask.
I don't tell.

I don't know how to.
I don't wanna see how they'd react.

I don't think I can take what they are gonna say. If it's gonna be anything negative, I'm goin back to depression.
I know I cannot take what people will say.
I'm not strong.
I think abt what others might say, and I get emo.
I think abt the jokes they will crack, I get emo.

Why am I like this?
I don't know.
I have no answers.
I'm just not ready.

The doctor had told me this:
It's not a matter if you're ready or not.
A person can have a gap of 5, 10 years, if they say they're not ready, they'll never be.
What needs to be changed is the mindset.
Take this not as a test, but as a blessing.
There are other people who are worse off than you.

Rite now, I'm just taking it slow.
I was in denial then.
But I've had my 1st scan last month.
And I'm beginning to accept this as God's willing.


I'll start by sharing this news with more people.

I hope they share my joys and not see my worries.

Come March, I'll have 2.

At age 25.

Pooped @ 4:04 PM