Tuesday, March 27, 2007

I'm down...

in the pits.

when u think things were already bad, it got worst.

i'm not one who will buka pekong di dada.

what more publicly like this.

let not people know my sorrows.

but jus see my smiles.

i have learnt and i guess mastered the art of masking my emotions.

this heart has been broken time and time again.

it's starting to hurt a little.

you can hurt me but pls, not my loved ones.

if anyone says that i'm patient, i agree.

i am.

very.

to a point where it's starting to bring me no where.

things will not change if i jus choose to keep mum.

the most i can do is to shed a tear or two for trying to bear with the hurt i feel inside.

u really hurt me deep that day.

there are many other things you do that hurt.

but that day will leave a deep scar.

and the pain will linger.

and the mind will not help to ease the pain either.

i'm weak.

i know when things are okay, all is forgiven.

but not forgotten.

sometimes i long for an ending.

an end.

i pray that He show me the path.

i have been patient enough.

i just want things to change.

this is by far the lowest i've been.

although i hope for that silver lining, i must prepare myself for gloomy days.

if u see me, and ask how have i been.

i'll smile.

and say i'm doin alright.

but in actual fact, the memory stays and it still hurts.

He knows.

Pooped @ 4:46 PM